for years I dreamed you

waiting for it to be true

and I lied

I invented a paradise of both

I relived the past again and again

sometimes killing me

reproaching my follies and my mistakes

I loved you for a long time

I looked at your picture every second

I looked at this for a long time

maybe that part of me

even this exist now

I dreamed you, I loved you and I idolized you

but you always pushed me aside

you went away

and I lost hope

I was lost and confused

now you come back

you come back with the bright look

you come back wanting to be close

but I…

I am not the same

I don't need you now

now I breathe confidence

now I live in my dreams

I live with the smile

of a new life

away from the past

away from you.